No, I have not written music about you…
Crazy that it’s only been a year since this came out. As rushed as it was, it’s been a wonderful and crazy year since then. If you don’t have it already, go to noisetrade.com/codybarnhart to download it. Love you guys and I will humbly accept your support as I continue in future musical endeavors.
I’m pretty confused
I may or may not be in the works to record this family of songs… (at Operation Full Length)
Last time ever getting in the zone on this piano. #byebyebirdie (at Maryville High School)
Senior year has been strange. Very strange.
Around this time last year, I was overhearing wedding planning and about to perform How to Succeed with a unified, fun cast. I felt included. I seemed like I was in a good place. I felt happy.
After a whirlwind of a year, it seems as if I’m not as happy as I was. When it comes to joy, I am abundantly more joyful—happiness not so much.
There are all sorts of ways I could feel sorry for myself: feeling isolated, losing friends, being overlooked, being put second on the priority list. Sometimes it feels pretty sucky, to be frank. It can be pretty discouraging to be trying my hardest to pursue after God and to still end up finishing last, not getting the attention I feel like I should be, failing to impress, or disappointing people.
A while back I did a pretty expedited read-through of Job, and I can’t help but think, “How did Job feel?” If you’ve been in church long, you’ve probably heard Job referenced during teaching about times of trial (poor guy, imagine being remembered for your poor reaction to God doing things in your life), so this may not seem that fresh.
I remember Job 5:18.
For he wounds, but he binds up;
he shatters, but his hands heal.
Job 5:18 (ESV)
Who am I to question the discipline of the Lord? Even if I did have a complaint—even a rightful one—on what authority would I be complaining on? Mine—the authority of a depraved, sinful man?
2 Corinthians 4 has become one of those “life chapters” for me, and in particular verses 16, 17, and 18.
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 (ESV)
So maybe I’m a little selfish sometimes. Job and Paul remind me not to be. Something greater is coming. Despite the lost friends, that one person I cannot get out of my head, the writer’s block musically and spiritually, the temptation to get offended by being overlooked or not recognized, I know this: an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison will one day be mine through the riches of knowing Christ Jesus as the Savior of the world.
As most of you know, I am planning to go into youth ministry.
The past couple months I have spent debating on whether or not I should search for an opportunity outside of my home church: maybe an internship or an assistant youth position at a larger church.
I have come to the conclusion that I simply don’t want it yet.
I love where I am, and not just because I enjoy it. I think God’s been waiting on me to get out of our youth program so he can use me as a leader. I’ve been planning some small things to do with some of the guys coming up and it’s been a wonderful experience. I’m so excited for the things that are coming up. I can’t wait to invest time into these guys and watch them grow in Christ.
So my heart is right where it belongs at FBA. The opportunities I have been given are huge. I can’t wait to see what we can all do when we work together.
My brother and his wife are moving back to Knoxville and I’m so excited I almost feel silly.
I anticipate being able to see them a lot more frequently already, in hopes that I can help get a lot closer to both of them.
God is great.
Borden’s back up for our final session of #CabinMadness2014. (at Sevierville Community Center)
The first session of #CabinMadness2014 is under way! Borden bringing the Word. (at Sevierville Community Center)
The doctrine of election enhances my view of His love for us.
You know what, man? Sometimes you just feel awful. Sometimes you just want a little bit of encouragement. It doesn’t matter what situation it pertains to, but you just want something.
Sometimes you just want to know that someone had you on their mind. It could be a text, a phone call, a retweet. Anything. It doesn’t matter if it is forced.